With Bono, I've been wondering lately if there's any order to be found
in the disorder. For the longest time I've subscribed to the myth of the
hidden order. "This all makes sense once you understand the metaphysical
underpinnings."

At first, I didn't realize there *was* any disorder. Then I freaked out
and pretended some Jew on a stick made up the hidden order and encoded it
in a collection of shitten manuscripts that are so bogus that even
children go "Are you fucking kidding me?".

About 10 years too late, I figured out that the Jesus train wasn't headed
anywhere, and consoled myself that there really was order. It was to be
found in the precision and orderly descriptions offered by physics, but
a lot of the precision of science is illusory at best. Science is just as
constrained by human ignorance as anything else. It's certainly the best
tool we have.

But I've got this sinking feeling that there really isn't any order to be
found. That the question itself is bullshit to start out with. All we've
got is what there is and the theories we lay on top of it are "things which
exist *only* in the understanding" just like god.